You are the medicine.
Hi, I’m Bree Estelle (formerly Jackie Abramov) and I’m happy you are here.
Kismet Mystic is my evolution and integration of mystical and ancient wisdom that has transformed my life and the lives of my clients.
I’m a mystic, a seeker, teacher and an agent of liberation. I’m here to disrupt the typical spiritual spaces and empower any person who wants to experience liberation, the healing of their mind, body, spirit and emotions. I’m a guide you of embodiment; I teach you how understand your unconscious mind so you can learn how to reprogram your unconscious and live fully alive and filled with energy. (which is not a magic pill or overnight process, but a real tangible life transformation)
The secrets of the shadow are simple, but the shadow is a slippery fish full of illusions… so even though it is simple, it is complex to grasp and humility, patience and a willingness to be challenged + learn are needed to traverse this path. Personally, I would not recommend seeking the guidance of anyone who hasn’t understood the depth of humility, as it is only through humility that we gain wisdom. Humility is not lowliness of mind. Humility is the ability to see + know your own shadow; to release judgement. There is a massive difference between an informant (aka someone who knows a lot of information and is intelligent) and someone who has been able to integrate information they claim to know into embodied wisdom. And Humility is the only way that happens.
Humility is the realization that one is not “right” about whatever they think they know. In a world of duality and polarity, there is no one right way. Our culture is infused with polar thinking and we tend to be attracted to people who are very polar as a way to prove our goodness or rightness- and this does not lead us to real freedom or understanding of ourselves. Many well meaning “healers”, empaths, shamans etc are still caught in polarity and thus their offerings may be helpful to move from one polarity to another, but often do not help you to integrate your shadow or understand this part of you that is hidden.
I am teaching and guiding something revolutionary and very different. My offerings are about guiding you OUT of the polar thinking and into your own shadow and unconscious mind- as this is the part of you that will bring deep understanding, freedom + wholeness to be you.
The human journey is to learn how to access the power of our soul- and the way we learn is through contrast; thus we are here to experience the opposite- being disempowered- and this brings difficulty and dissatisfaction. Difficulty has the potential to inspire the desire to change), however, many people stay in a polarity because it is challenging to face yourself and/or change.
Truth is, we don’t HAVE to change. We don’t have to do anything. We get to choose.
Darkness is the unconscious and shadow; and this is something we inherently avoid. However, it is a vital part of the human journey, as this is how we learn and evolve. My offerings are an invitation is to go deeper, into the darkness and to remember it’s safe to experience it all, so that we can reconnect to the whole; the totality of being.
I have a unique gift of understanding the subtle energy of the unconscious and I use this gift in my offerings to create a safe place for clients to gain deeper understanding of themselves and their shadow. I have looked deeply into my own darkness and shadow, and learned how to release judgement, to accept and to embrace all of it- this has freed me from my fears and empowered me to fully trust my path.
This does not mean less challenges, for a life without challenges would mean no growth and no adventure. We are here to learn how to fully experience our life and emotions - and to understand our inner motives, so that we can become the conscious creator. Fulfillment and joy, as I see it, come from being fully present and connecting to and understanding the symbolism and meaning of your experiences. I work with a variety of clients, from those who want to dip their toe in…to those who are ready to embody real liberation. Every little step matters and I would love to work with you and meet you where you are.
A little about my journey
I’m a sojourner and connected to the instinctual nature of the wild untamed spirit of life. Life, experiences & relationships are a place to learn and I am always seeking to understand and gain wisdom through them. I’ve walked into darkness, the fire, the fear…and returned with the alchemy of what can never be taken away; the liberation of my own mind, body + soul.
I was the little child that talked to the man in the clouds, I prayed, saw and talked to spirits, and since I was young, knew I was guided + connected to the mystical realm. I knew Spirit was with me. I talked to the trees, the clouds, the rocks- made concoctions of spring onions, dirt + seeds and sat by the waters edge to wait for the signs from the animals + earth. I have always sought Source- even in my teens and twenties when I was partying and at the most difficult times of my life; I was drawn to God, to the miraculous. I knew it in my soul. And I saw it. So many times…I saw my prayers and my intentions hold power- and this was when I was still bound in my own mind, depression and anxiety and so much constriction + pain. We don’t have to have it all together to be connected to the Universe, or God or Great Spirit. We are connected at all times.
I reached several points in my life that I really understood that I did not understand something. IT was on the tip of my tongue. I began to see that all the outward seeking, was me avoiding something within myself. I came to understand that this was my shadow and my unconscious mind. It took a LOT of digging for me to understand this. Through a series of external challenges, I learned to listen to this very small voice that was inside of me, asking me to do things that were hard and uncomfortable. As I followed this inner knowing, I began to learn about my inner shadow and the unconscious self - which supported me to unravel more and more, and see these hidden parts of myself. At first, it seemed like when people talked about Shadow or the Unconscious, they were talking ABOUT something they didn't really understand. It felt like a mirage. As I deeply invested in understanding my unconscious/ shadow, the duality & polarity of life- it began to unfold for me. And I could see that most people were only talking “about” the shadow/unconscious and while they meant well, they did not really understand what they were saying, because they weren’t able to see their own shadows. Understanding this was humbling and explained why was so hard for me to follow my own integrity and that still small voice. Through very dark nights of the soul, releasing and letting go of my attachments and learning to grieve, I opened a door to my unconscious, and this part of me remembered- I remembered Energy Healing, Astrology, Psychology, Shadow, the Unconscious, Polarity Duality, Spirit and Soul- it came alive to me during a time of my life when I was truly alone. Reconnecting with this wisdom but it brought me to my center and taught me that it was safe for me to feel all the things I had suppressed. And this is a little bit about how I found liberation and sovereign power.
I believe we are each invited to remember the wisdom we carry and we are here on an adventure; which entails learning about all the difficult things about ourselves so that we can gain the courage to authentically express ourselves and live out our unique purposes- and this usually involves some dark nights of the soul. Personally, I don’t subscribe to the New Age idea that we manifest the life of our dreams and it’s all good- that is just an illusion. And yes, those teachers are pushing the illusion because they want it to be that way- and that's okay- they are allowed too. But we live in duality and in cycles connected with life and death - just look at nature, it is not always abundant, nature goes through retraction in order to rebirth. Abundance is not constant growth. Abundance is the ability to go through the cycle of death + rebirth. In this life we are learning AND Manifesting; we can (and we might not) learn what it means to be in our own power & integrity in order to live fulfilled from the inside out- which means that you can experience life’s challenges and still have clarity, steadiness, inner peace and joy.
As life unraveled for me, I have had to deconstruct and reconstruct my life and worldview, several times. Walking through, or maybe crawling through, dark nights of the soul, taught me to sit with my greatest grief, fears and sadness. The loss and divorce of my partner and best friend, stepping away from my family and friends in order to get clarity, having nothing and no one to lean on; facing my deepest fears, it was scary. Through this, I learned how to be with my pain, hurt, anger and grief and how essential it was for me to experience feeling in order to experience healing. I also learned how vital it is for someone to hold sacred space for my pain- which is something few people have the capacity to do. This is why I now hold this healing space for others- personally I did not find anyone who had the capacity to really be with and hold my pain, without taking it on, overly empathizing or pitying me. All of those, hinder healing. Healing involves feeling and integrating the parts of us that we have suppressed or shamed, without judgement or the need to fix them.
That being said, I’m not here to fix you or anyone else. I have gifts and I am here to use them but I don’t believe you are broken and I don’t believe there is anything wrong with you. Rather, Healing is letting go of right and wrong and good and bad- and about understanding and integrating all parts of you. So my gifts are to guide you to feel and then learn a new way of being in your body.
Having experienced hopelessness, self sabotage, depression, suicidal ideation, anguish, and feeling lost, angry and so much more… I deeply know how hard it can be live on this planet. I discovered the power of unconscious, which holds the stories that run our lives, can be reprogrammed with new stories that have power. Through years of trials and tests and triumphs and challenges, I learned that my body is a vessel of wisdom- I knew what was going on, I knew what to do….I just didn’t know how to do it! So learned to be safe in my body and to become the validation I was looking for. Now, as a guide, I will be a witness to your journey and offer clear grounded direction + insight, that will align with your intuitive knowing and support you to reprogram your unconscious mind.
My life's work is to disrupt the ideals of what is normal and what we should or shouldn't be, so that we can be who we truly are & consciously create lives, relationships and experiences that really do, feel good to our soul. When we do this, we FEEL health from the inside out. My offerings empower individuals to explore themselves and their inner truths so that they can learn what it means to satisfied at a soul level.
We are all on a journey of evolution and spirituality and there isn’t “one way”. But there is a way that is real for you and a way that is an illusion for you. This is the experience of duality, that we can exist under an illusion and it is also real. We are invited to honestly ask: Is the way that I’m choosing creating more of an illusion? Am I just saying all the right things, but not able to actualize them? Or am I empowered to live in inner freedom, authenticity and with inner peace? It is difficult to admit when we are living in the illusion. If we are constantly looping and cycling in the same struggles, we are in the illusion. And it is valid and okay to be in an illusion, there is no judgement, but if we want to experience liberation and live in inner peace… honesty with ourselves and understanding ourselves are key.
It’s okay to do a 180, to flip things upside down or let things go. Sometimes the medicine we need is not what one might think. In the process you may discover that your still small voice was speaking to you all along. You do have all that you need inside of you. And I’m here to support you to discover it.
It would be my honor to guide you as you step into your own path..
As above, So below
As Within, So Without
As the Universe, so the Soul
— Hermes Trismegistus